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he tugged at my heart and i pushed him away

He called from afar

but still my body won't move to answer

my tongue is heavy, my legs are stiff

frozen in satisfaction, weakened by my affair,

I want him i know i do

and i know he knows it too...

but i'm afraid to be happy,

and with him i am happy...and pure

but i've chosen to be bad....just for a while...

but i don't want to lose him

i don't want to lose YOU...

wait for me? Please... say you'll wait for me